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  • Sad song of a soldier
  1. Did not you hear me, Companions, I am calling you.
    Companions of the prophet Mohammed
  2. Here I am, in front of you, attached by a rope like a sheep.
  3. May anyone of you cut my attachments.
  4. If the Saints bless me when I go through dangerous terrain,
  5. I would have wings and fly over the summits of the mountains.
  6. Whoever calls them for help, will never fear to run into hard troubles.
  7. O Saints, I am calling you for help, take me by my hand.
  8. Let me start by you, and open my mouth by asking you,
  9. My God, to open any gate you closed.
  10. Now, tell me, my mouth, let us start the lyrics for the song.
  11. Give me the facts, tell me the whole stories.
  12. Are you, my sister, feeling happy and healthy,
  13. Since I added to your dramas this year.
  14. I imagine my mother, my brother and my sisters would be crying about me,
  15. Since the steps were cut between me and you.
  16. Since I stopped crossing at Brija and Hammouti.
    Local geographical references
  17. And since the letters from the pregnant stopped coming to me.
  18. O Fadma-Houssa Thamhjoubith to whom
    Full name of the sister
  19. I made large scars everywhere.
  20. O Fadma-Houssa Thamhjoubith to whom
  21. I made a permanent scar on the liver.
    Liver is considered as the center of emotions
  22. Ditch your cover, roam the lands, search for Moha.
  23. Where is your brother who used to visit you on the morning,
  24. And used to come to see you in the evening by the sloppy shortcuts.
  25. Is all what the courageous ate at your home over?
  26. Is all what the courageous drank at your home over?
  27. Are the talks between me and the kids of Mamma over?
    Mamma is a darling name for Fadma
  28. We are separated, my dear sister, and none of us is to blame for it.
  29. There is death and life. Never say that
  30. A bullet kills, or that a mine kills,
  31. Or that an accident or an airplane do.
  32. Whatever God had written on me, I will reach it by my feet.
  33. Hopefully God did not write sins on me.
  34. Give me your ears, let me explain you the words.
  35. You did a mistake that should not be blamable,
  36. And should not be hard for me to bear.
  37. But the bad brain senses it,
  38. And if the heart kept it, the liver would dispute it.
  39. The organs inside me are like inheritors,
  40. Everyone wants their boundaries not to be moved.
  41. Anyone with a soft liver would take a great share.
    Soft liver: sensitive.
    Share of pain and sadness
  42. None would admit the neighbor to move the boundaries.
  43. I fear, if I get angry at you this time, you will get angry back at me.
  44. And if we start to weigh our debts our relationship would not be saint,
    Sentimental debts
  45. And that would cause a fracture between me and my sister.
  46. But this subject is like a fire inside me.
  47. The heat went up and down inside me burning the veins.
  48. Give me your ears, let me explain you the words.
  49. But please be patient and do not blame me
  50. Or get mad at me, Mamma and the sister of Mina.
    Mina is the bride, daughter of Fadma
  51. Congratulations for the marriage, consider like I came, like I saw you.
  52. Did all the noble cavaliers celebrate with you?
  53. Did any musician miss the dropping ?
    Dropping is a key moment of a marriage party, when the bride drops from the horse to enter the home of her husband
  54. Did the party last until the very late night?
  55. Did her henna give the expected dark color?
  56. Did Mina unleash her hair or not?
    Dancing is better with unleached hair
  57. Did you enjoy the party without me?
  58. Hard things became easy for you,
  59. You did not consider the shame or …
  60. … the hill of Aith Khouya.
    Someone started recording over the tape. A voice is heard saying: cut, cut.
    Aith Khouya is a local geography reference
  61. I did actually celebrate with you from here with some shots.
  62. I broke the cane over the head of her majesty.
    Marriages are celebrated with gun shots over the dancers and at random places and moments as a sign of pride and prestige. That can give place to challenges like shooting the cane over the bride from a distance.
    The bride is the queen
  63. We had a big party here in Haouza but you could not see it.
    Location in Sahara, probably near the city of Smara
  64. We play every day and there are winners all the time.
    Winning means death
  65. Our Ahidous [music] is loud and everyone can hear it.
  66. It is mixed with ululations, but not like yours,
  67. I am talking about those that comb the cheeks.
    Sign of extreme sadness
  68. Excuse me if the omen is not good,
  69. But I am talking by sadness, not by lack of brain.
  70. And if someone criticizes me, I hope for them the same thing.
  71. May God not make it the last contact between me and you.
  72. So I would come back over one day to meet you.
  73. And make the familial links between us like a fabric divided vertically
  74. And horizontally giving fair shares to everyone.
  75. We would share by lots. And whatever my share is,
  76. I will take it. Nothing to be blamed for afterward.
  77. Everyone is then free to organize parties.
  78. Everyone is then free to go to hell.
  79. Everyone is then free to be kind or mean after me.
  80. My life will be sad [starting from] this year.
  81. Since I came to Haouza, I live in mountains,
  82. Dirty and unshaved like an owl, unable to pray.
  83. Until I received your letter which delivered me.
  84. Then I sat down and asked God for pardon.
  85. I washed with soap until my head became clean,
  86. And I combed my beautiful frizzy hair.
  87. But what hurts me is only that kid I left behind.
  88. Who would he ask: “buy me candies, dad”?
  89. Who would he hug at home like before?
  90. And when the neighbors come back from the market like I did before,
  91. Everyone goes home and takes care of the children,
  92. Every kid hugs the father and asks him:
  93. Let me inspect you to find out what you brought me this time.
  94. Mine would wait by the side of the road, staring.
  95. Your dad did not come this time, dear Stafa.
  96. If only you knew we are in caves in mountains,
    Talking to his son.
    Caves here mean tranches
  97. I am sad and I cry about you all the time.
  98. Your loss drives me crazy and may make me blind.
  99. Please God, I put all my faith on you,
  100. And so does a single boy, that children bully.
  101. If only I lost you when you were still a newborn,
  102. Before my eyes get used to your size, dear Stafa.
  103. Before your love grows in me to kill me now.
  104. I miss the dinners we gathered around every night.
  105. I miss the lunches we gathered around every day.
  106. Grow up my son, smart and rhetorical.
  107. I thought we would stay together, so I taught you
  108. My experience and you learned many things from me.
  109. I got happy with you and cleared my ideas,
  110. I got a decent job, I enrolled in the army and gained my life.
  111. Unemployment and theft were a shame.
  112. Unlike many, my head was not light.
    That means he was wise
  113. Unlike many, my tongue was not distasteful.
    That means he was a good talker
  114. I was not addicted to gambling and no one can blame me for that.
  115. My way was not going through mountains.
    That means he was honest and trustworthy
  116. And I was so honest that when I give someone my word,
  117. I would become a Christian rather than let them down.
    Becoming a Christian is a sign of ultimate shame and disgrace
  118. I am telling the truth, not licking my hand,
  119. I do not have extra useless words.
  120. At the end, if someone was driven by the karma,
  121. To criticize me, they need first to check their back,
  122. To make sure they do not have a camelback they can not see.
  123. Whoever twists a rope ends up leashed in it.
  124. My lonely son, I am crying every day.
  125. Your love threw me against the river.
  126. I closed my eyes and jumped without seeing where I would land.
  127. Because I made you herd by cold weather,
  128. Because you met hot days you could not bear.
  129. Because I was taken by the chores and did not have time for you.
  130. Because I could not make a shadow for you, and you could not do it for me,
    Shadow means protection
  131. Because our family were all burnt by the hot weather.
  132. So I swore to lose my future for yours.
  133. To make you ride like your generation,
  134. As it was too late for my own future.
  135. Your mom however could improve your future now after me.
  136. If she stayed humble and remembered the hard times.
  137. Not if she acts like the twin wives of the pilgrim:
    He means like one of them
  138. One prepares the butter and disposes of the milk,
  139. And stores the butter in secure jars.
  140. While the stupid one gives the butter to the neighbors,
  141. And says “my jars are for milk only,
  142. I will store it for the pilgrim, he must be thirsty,
  143. He likes the milk but I fear it could get rotted”.
  144. I will not tell you to cook artichoke or onions,
    Talking to his wife
  145. Or that your cooking lacks salt or is extra spicy.
  146. That is your son s home, take care of him or do not, it is up to you.
  147. None would bother you in your home after me.
  148. Women are the key either for success
  149. Or for dramatic fail of any family.
  150. Any household without a saving plan is considered dead.
  151. Its manager will never have any extra money.
  152. Even with a huge torrent, the leaks are too big behind.
    Torrent of money